Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Simplicity is Bliss

Yep, life is simple nowadays. Especially because I have more free time on my hand. Although I currently have a cold, I find that I have lots of time to simply think. I think about what's important to me, what I want, what I need, etc.

Ever since I got my bachelor's degree, well ever since high school for that matter, things have just been happening to me. I never PLAN things. I've attempted to keep planners in school but... nope... they always end up in the back of my closet. Some people are good at planning things like their weeks or their lives. Well, I'm not the planner type of person. Things just happen to me and that's fine. After college graduation, because I'm not good at planning my future, you can imagine how things became overwhelming.

I never even had a dream growing up. People wanted to be singers, doctors, actors. And me... I just like to dabble. I'm the type of person who has many interests and can't commit to one thing, except well Kalan. I know I have the ability to commit to something... just what?! I'm currently still in love with fashion. I'm not sure where it will lead me but I hope its someplace aesthetically pleasing.

I've embraced my whateverness. For as long as I can remember, I've considered myself as a laid back person. When I was little my favorite Disney character was Pocahantas because well she was pretty and because she just went wherever the wind blew her. Some may call it waif-like but I think it's admirable. People like that have less fear than most when doing something. It also reminds me to not do something that doesn't feel right even though society thinks its the right way.

Okay what's my point? I have no point. All I know is that this afternoon I was walking through Seoul Station today alone listening to my ipod and I realized that I was a whole ocean away from home. When I emerged from the subway I walked up the hill to my house and I saw Seoul Tower peering down at me from a clear sky. I smelled smells that, frankly, did not smell anything like home. I heard sounds that were loud and foreign and interesting. And I saw people. Lots of people with different life experiences and different perpectives.

I'm a whole world away from home. Lots of people don't even look past their backyard. That makes me blessed and all I can do is learn from it and make the most of it.


  1. You're so smart, babe. You're learning from the experience and taking good out of it.

  2. quarter life crisis! i'll be in barstow